Disappointing Zombies

So I'm sitting in front of the pc late at night, yet again, unable to sleep. I guess I'll just write whatever pops into my head...

I had to admit to John that I've been holding in a lot of stress lately. He asked whether it was stress or excitement. I guess they're both the same when it comes to me.

Tomorrow we jet over to Austin (and I mean that literally) in the early evening to see a movie that looks really promising. It's called "Adam" and it's about a man with Asperger Syndrome who falls for his neurotypical neighbor. The trailer made me laugh & cry at the same time, which is quite impressive, as almost nothing makes me laugh or cry and for it to have me doing both at once was a bit of a shock, even for me. I don't know if people believe me when I say that I almost never cry. I guess only the people who really know me well can say that it's true. My family has been around me during the worst of times and they know for sure, even when someone I love was in very bad shape, I had to keep it together for my mom & son. I assume they thought I was just being strong. No. I'm not strong. I just can't express myself the way others can. I can't make myself cry. I can't bring myself to do it most of the time.

Anyway...we're going to this movie and we have to rush to the airport, hope the plane's on time, rush to the theater, rush to the hotel. Rush again the next morning to an early flight back home, rush to work, rush rush rush...

It's exciting but draining. There are other things that are making me a bit panicky besides just that. I'm getting in touch with old friends I haven't seen in a while, it's disrupting my pattern and that is upsetting to me, even though I am pleased to see & hear from old friends. I'm taking a trip this October, to Mexico for a weekend. That's going to be fun, but again, stressful/exciting.

Writing is stressful, because in my stories I have to meet new people. That might sound weird but that's how it feels to me. All these new people running around in my head, making demands, saying things over and over again until I get it down on paper. They will be heard.

And then next month I turn 30! Ugh, where did the last ten years of my life go? Seriously...

I guess all of this is why I have been escaping into manga lately. I need these other worlds, to get away from my own for a while. I am still so happy to have met every wonderful person in the Fruits Basket universe. I'm now on book 12 and I know it's almost over. That actually might just be enough to make me cry. I always want to cry when something wonderful ends. It's natural. Usually, I just hide the tears inside, but sometimes I am overwhelmed by a good story and those tears leak out. I am overcome. I find myself doing that a lot with Furuba. I love those Sohmas, and Tohru and her friends and even Megumi. Even those idiots in the Yuki Sohma fanclub warm my heart. Someday I want to meet (Natsuki) Takaya-Sensei. I feel like it's something I have to do. And I have to say, she's inspired me so much.

I guess the reason I titled this blog "disappointing zombies" is because another manga I started reading was about zombies. The first volume was so great, very promising. The premise was interesting, the setting was satisfyingly gothic and the two lead male characters were rather sexy. The girl lead was easy to identify with as she was mousy and small and meek, but she too had promise. Zombie-Loan by Peach-Pit was as big a disappointment to me as Furuba was a pleasant surprise. The first volume was well written, had a plot that made sense and the end was fitting. The ride was smooth from the beginning and the end was exactly where you wanted to go. The second volume quickly lost my interest because it seemed like the writers kept jumping around from place to place without having the characters really do much. Plus, the mystery & the crime they were solving was not interesting. Then they introduced two more female characters who seemed to have no purpose except to distract the main female character, sometimes by being unnecessarily vulgar and/or cryptic. Okay, let's just say that Yomi is a nasty whore and I don't like her. I get that she likes girls, but does that mean she has to be such a slut? She practically rapes Michiru...ugh, spoiler-tastic, I know. That's all I'm gonna say. I think I wanted Akatsuki-san to be another version of Kyo Sohma from Furuba. Oh, my...



How I love Kyo Sohma. ::sigh:: He is indeed, a fabulous monster...


I'm really gonna get off track if I keep goin' down that road. Ooh! That reminds me...in Furuba Vol. 11, there's another LOST reference. Oh yeah...

"Did you...open the box?"

How could I not think of Leonard from Santa Rosa, yelling at Hurley in Season 1's Numbers, "You opened the box!"




Hey, Darlton...WE STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT BOX!

Sorry...had to get that off my chest, so to speak!

Back to manga. Those zombies were quite the disappointment. I was really hoping this series would be good. I love zombies. LOVE THEM. I wish someone would write a Twilight-like series of books only with zombies. I was really hoping Zombie-Loan would be IT. But sadly, no. I keep waiting. I'll probably keep watching the anime online though (and for free, of course). The series seems to work better as an anime.

I tossed vol. 2 of Z-L on the floor and went to the bookstore (for more Furuba) and whilst there I found another interesting manga, Blank Slate. I was just captivated by the sexy, androgynous character on the cover. I had to read this book.



Plus, the title, another LOST reference (Tabula Rasa, y'all). Halfway through the book, I'm really digging it. The main character, Zen, has depth and an unexpected gallantry about him. I hope he gets back together with the blind girl. Their little tryst was very interesting to me, as you don't really see that kind of pairing, without the plot becoming infested with treacle. That one's by Aya Kanno.

I also found some anime here online called Xam'd. I'm gonna watch the first episode now, see if I like it.

So till next time, to ease my frayed nerves, if anyone knows any good zombie manga or zombie anything for that matter...let me know, 'k?